O, beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-eyed monster which doth
Iago in Othello
And the monster lives in me. Most times it lays dormant or is happy to simply compare others, not that that is an endorsement of the behavior. But pet sins often go unnoticed, unchecked, and unchallenged. There are times it wakes. Hungry it feeds on something innocent and grows with anger and bitterness. Reveling a truly shallow selfish me.
Completely understandable -human even. At the same time it disgusts me.